What have become of me? Why have I changed to become such a person that I am now?
I’m tired. Tired of pretense. Tired of falsifying things. Tired of this.
I used to think that I am a better person than the average man. But I was wrong. I am just the same. Just the usual guy who try to lift himself above others just because he has ego the size of Mars.
I hate this part of me. I hate this visor that I see in myself. I hate to see myself destroying my own life. Friends - gone; career - gone; future - gone.
All these realization from a tear. A tear from someone deep in my life. Someone lost forever. How much more do I want to take away from myself?